Xiao Xuan

my last post.

2010-12-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

Hey yo! pictures uploaded in facebook.

i think im going to stop blogging soon.

i shall buy myself a diary like LAST TIME and wrote everyday entry.

in fact, i bought 1 diary today. hehe.

cost... quite ex. but nvm its HOT PINKKK :D

& today was awesome. almost everyday with w450 is awesome.

although going on stage and sing is really scary as i have stage fright but haha! fun today :)

well, there are many things going on in my head now.

wondering... what's my next step??

I need to seek God and find my answer.

I wonder that those visions that came up into my mind... like for quite long already..

today im starting to take it serious.. so what am i thinking anyway?

From something i really thought its IMPOSSIBLE..

my head is really spinning like a tornado.

I wish i could ........................................... but i know if i do, its gonna be the wrong step.

BUT i know there is a solution..

TIME & PATIENCE is the key.

im going off. today is my last day blogging.

MAY this blog be dead until... the day i think my blog is worth blogging. :)

good bye. LOVE U ALL READERS :D

A brand new day; A brand new journey

2010-12-08T16:39:00.002+08:00

Hey :) wassup! Im back again! wahahhaa.

nowadays too lazy to blog le :X

hahaha but nvm im back with my white lappy :)

yesterday whole day at home so boring.. i feel so weak.

Do housework until vacumn spoil :X

today leh... ok la. make my itunes lerh ^^ happy. wahhaha!

Watched boys over flower :)

well, short post. byeee :)

I SHOULD CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN MAN! :D

Dear Father, for you, i will rise :)

Im back!

2010-12-07T02:33:00.005+08:00

Yeah man.. im back. after a long break.

yeah.. break,. and Im single.

I really dont feel like repeating my stories anymore..

I hate doing this.. i really regretted saying goodbye to you that time.

I wish i could hold you longer.. i would'nt know this would happen..

heartbreaks heartbreaks is always cracking.

Dear heart, im so sorry for the damage..

Yes.. many agree i am more matured now. i didnt cry and emo alot.

Now i think of my past, i think i am really stupid to cry last time..

I want to live my life. But im afriad to face him.

I scared.. we cant be like how we are in the past anymore..

babyfats and kiddy stories have ended? i hope not..

I shall not wish for more. now.. focus on my studies..

I want to be happy.. even if how sad i am.. i will still smile.

I am not going to go for r/s for now... for long long period.

I want to calm myself down and look at my dear life...

how i have ruin my life... regrets.. shame on me. im such a shit in the past.

but because i have gone through it. its over.

im looking ahead not looking back. There is more to come.

today, went out with shavon and tricia to buy my skinny and go orchard watch NARNIA.

awesome movie. yeah :)

go shop and eat. haha! nice day. but can be better someday :)

im going to sleep. nights guys.

LOVE just knocks u down and get back up and down again..

If we were to meet again, and our situation were not in this matter.

I would chose you again boy. thanks for giving me such great memories.

take care & im sorry.

you are really a GOOD boyfriend. hope you find the right one soon.

bye :(

I miss you baby!

2010-12-01T00:05:00.002+08:00

Today wake up very early. & I got up of bed and with my sister go back to my pri sch.

Buy her textbook all those stuffs. wow... so tired. haha!

& cook for my family (: o.0

then go out at night. meeting.

pray (: then home sweet home. i reach home at 11.10pm!

o.o! hahaha! now downloading games (:

I miss baby alot. I think im not gonna take it anymore. i miss you alot :(

I wish u were right here by my side. Baby come back soon! (:

I love you and I MISS YOU!

busy day!

2010-11-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

OHHHH today was the busiest day ever!

Wake up, like 12pm?! then cook for my family.

wahahahah. i love my dishes :D cause all my fav food ;)

Then wash dishes. *im such a good kid (: *

Help put out the clothings.. housework.

vacumm, mop & cleaning. wooooo~~

help my sister to throw her stuffs. like fully 3 bags of things. omg =.=

this is like OMG~ from afternoon do until like now...1am!!!

then i use com. ._.

OH DEAR IPHONE. please please please activate. i cant wait to use you.

wahahahah :D Im sooo waiting for my unlimitied msg. (:

And.. Dear baby, I really really really miss you, you know?

I wish i can bang my head on the wall and go concussion for 2 more days and wake up the time,

i can see you right here beside me now. ._.

I cant wait to see you soon. i really misses you.

You got take care of yourself right? dont go missing in the jungle! :)

come back save. Im waiting for you here, always have been.

I love you & I MISS YOU♥

loves, chubby :D

waiting. patience. (:

2010-11-28T21:04:00.003+08:00

Im waiting.... (:

Today went out to meet amalina, then go lot by 307.

thanks to here.. im acting like a fool today!!!

go until clarke quay buy stickys. too bad i didnt.

no money. haha. ._.

go dinner with my WHOLE family.

cousins all there. wow. its been so long.. then we meet up alrdy.

chatted alot (: she knows i have a boyfriend.. omg..

i wonder if my uncle and aunt know about it or not. i HOPE NOT.

they will sabo :(

then now, im at home alrdy. having big headache.

:( need to download lots of stuffs.

iphone oh iphone.. when can you start activating.

when can i have unlimited msg?

:)imwaiting!

yes.. im always waiting..

Baby, im waiting you to come back, by my side. I miss you.
♥

iphone ^^

2010-11-28T01:10:00.002+08:00

Very happy + Very sad.

Today baby leave already. I kind of regret... i didnt see you today, which i could have.

If i go late for my cca :(

hope you enjoy yourself there. (:

Im waiting for you to be back. Before you come back, my everypost, shall have "I miss you sayang" :*(

Well, today cca was...tired luh! Wake up so early... 5.30am ! then amalina wan meet 6am.

Lucky i change the time meet 6.30am then we reach sch about 7am, ppl still nt reach.

we were suppose to "reach last" but instead we reached "first"

lazy goes us.. we keep going to toilets visit in the morning dark dark~

haha! but luckily.. sees nothing (:

Goes to change & cca starts. FAC training. Run out of voice soon. hahaha!

After cca, go run far far away to mac.. and got spotted eating.

yet we go on 1hr early dismiss. they sure think we want to bluff them and go off early.

but in fact.. we were really hungry. wat to do.

eat & faster take bus home. Prepare for an awesome service (:

Totally todays servie flunk it all into my head! :)

Totally... awesome... :) Im super impressed with something new i have learned today.

yeah. patience, faith ~ nothing is impossible. (:

I bought an iphone today. im super duper happy.

Im so worried and scared when i know they were about to reject and buy another phone for me.

but im super happy! :D mummy&daddy the best :D

Now that i have got my unlimited, For i will rise & shine for God :)

This day have come. Live my life! woohoo~ :))

J'etaime♥

2010-11-27T00:09:00.002+08:00

Awwwww~ Today cell group meeting was awesome. hahaha! I love that game xD

I goes... zhu ba jie & jackson goes.... sun wu kong. hahah! copy!

But fun larh ^^ Videos & stuffs. Enjoyed myself much (:

Thanks Henzy, Oliver & Jackson uh! All show your iphone to me.. T.T

Make me jealous. hmph. ohhhh welll~ im still praying for it.

Dear God, answer my prayer please *.*

Tonight i ate hello panda (s). :(

Pathetic me... save money till like that. what to do~

hmmm... (: oh well.. guess i have to say it all tonight.

Baby, you will see this tmr right? (:

First of all, you havent leave, but i already miss you alot. :'(

Must takekaiire of yourself kay! You promise? Dun be a dumb dumb !! :)

I will wait for you to come back singapore ! :)

Come back in 1 piece boy (: I love you! ♥

Loves, the chubby & always loving you girl.

Goodnight (:

J'etaime♥

Youre always in my mind.

2010-11-26T00:03:00.002+08:00

Im in loveeeeeee with the song "just a dream" Gosh..!

SUPER NICE CAN! :) ♥♥♥

Today was an unforgettable day of my life.. I cant believe...

it will be so damm long before i can see you again! :(
I swear i will miss you badly. i promise i will control kay.

hehe :) OH WELL. Have fun shopping tmr dear. haha! :P

A few mins ago, my mum scare me =.=

she tell me my phone bill is $47.80. wad?! so ex.. i really thot im dead.

then she tell me NO LA. is daddy's fone bill.

LOL~~ then she tell me im going get a new fone~

woohoo i DEMAND AN IPHONE4! >:(

haha! I want i want i want !!!

I want iphone4 so badly like a kid craving for lollipop!

:O PLS DUN MISUNDERSTOOD, IM NT SAYING IM A KID! wahahahaha :D

My sister still watching Mr bean. look at the time now! Its 12.15am! OMG =.=

hmmm... left with 1 more day... :(

I will wait for you to come back big baby. Make sure u come back in 1 piece! :)

Love you. Youre in lalaland now.. :) Im going to lalaland to find you soon ((:

nights ♥

I miss baby boy ..

2010-11-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

Who understands me?

Is it because im acting too crazily everytime because im trying not to get emotional?

I need someone to talk to. Someone whom is always there for me.

Yes.. i know things dont goes my way. I have to learn to accept things.

Even things i hate. But i could not tolerate... when people talking behind my back.

I think, its best for me to stay alone.

Its better to keep in shut inside me.

Wads the point to saying out? Im just wasting my effort.

For i will trust no one but myself.

maybe this is the best way to live.

I wish i could be stronger...

Today went out with tricia & shavon.

went to do some art & eat eat eat

keith & harvin were with us at the start

ate ice cream. (:

well... i miss you baby. every single second.

Maybe this is the difference of an attached life?

Its been long... ever since i start to miss someone so badly.

I wish to see you soon.. :( dont wish you to leave.

but i know you have to..

*********************************************************

First of all, i had enough of tolerating

2nd, im not your toy. Im not something you can BUY.

3rd, when you need me you come, when you dont you throw

WHAT IS THIS?!

4th, You wanna be a big picture in my life, i let you be.

what more do you want?

Back from genting :)

2010-11-24T00:59:00.007+08:00

Genting was COLD. wahahahah! I play alot of thrill rides :)

Fun Fun :) I love the swing! weeeee~~~ :)

Sad thing is... i dont have enough sleep.. & i miss baby alot.

I wish to see you soon boy. :(

Tmr im going out. :) so... i need to go soon.

byeee ♥

I ♥ you, only you :)

2010-11-19T00:07:00.003+08:00

Hey people :) Im back :D

Today was the best day i ever had.

haha! :D Went out to catch Harry Potter with baby, amalina, ashraf, serene & bubu

O.O I dun like the ending. haha! Hoping for part 2 soon :)

& After movie, went to eat. haha! Most of them went home after that.

Me, baby and bubu go panjiang diaso buy stuffs.

Baby act cute :P My baby raindeer. hehe :))

Then go slack with baby.

Haix. Im going to miss you like hell. I know i would.

But i will try to enjoy myself at genting tmr kay? :)

I love you baby. :D

Love you alot alot alot ttm :)

Baby, takekaiire alright..? :) I love you! ♥

I believe youre the one for me :) Time will prove. I ♥ you :)

See you soon, boy ♥

endless ♥

2010-11-17T09:34:00.004+08:00

OOPPSSY. 1st time in my life, i forgot to blog ytd.

wahahahah! :) Yesterday whole day at home.

didnt go out with the shopping QUEENSSSS cause im broke :((

Im gonna save up.. up in the end need pay $10 for class bbq.

$$$ FLY AWAY!!. :(( I wanna shop one leh~ PLEASE! CAN! I! HAVE! A! JOB!! :(

I wanna faster 16 yrs old larhh!! :O

Hmm,.. whole day watching endless love. I watch dao ep 14 lerh. ^^ fast bah~~ :)

The rest of the ep havent come out., waiting ^^

Yesterday im sorry baby, i did something "wrong" in a moment.

feel so guilty. :(

I miss you alot! Wish to see you soon. I make sure i pinch ur b^.^d face! :)

Today i have NOTHING to do. Guess my dad want me to pack bag to overseas.

Wah.. this time go genting 4 days leh... Guess i will cry to sleep everynight. ._.

&& After genting, i decided my plans. Do notes & Go run. Do all kind of "sports"

I want to lose weight :) Gonna find amalina. :)

O.O Holiday pack with MY PLANS. wahahahah! I think today i watched bloody monday bah.

O.O Heard that the "hacker" in the show is cool.

alright. byeee peopleeee :)

BABY, I MISS YOU & I LOVE YOU !! ♥

w450 outing was awesome :)

2010-11-14T21:55:00.003+08:00

I know im always stuck in that damm position.

Its time for me to move forward. :)

I can do it. I know!

For today shall let the past, go.

& Let my future takes it place.

I am a happy girl and i will be.

Today was awesome. EAST COAST PARK.

Have you ever eat fried rice, during windy times?

& its those DAMM WINDY ONE.

haha! awesome. :D totally! :)

Awwww~ it rain.. so we didnt get to have fun in the beach..

but instead, we play pool. HAHAH! I GOT IN! WOOOHOOO!!

They didnt ask IC. tooooo bad :D

Play pool. woah shot shot shot :D

I won many rounds. team with jack the most.

but we keep swopping around.

1 shot get in 4 balls. COOL :)

hahaha! After that go pajiang eat and home.

fun & nice day. after soooo long finally got outing.

Today.. is nice.. nice talks nice play.

haha :)

Well, im off to watch endless love i guess.

I guess, i miss your concern.

2010-11-14T00:50:00.002+08:00

JETAIME :)

Today was awesome. Because i know, i learn.

Service was totally... amazing. learn alot of stuffs.

Life.. experiences lighted me up.

Today misses baby many many.

Left with 7days =1week.

& Im gone. for 4 days :(

I will misssssss you alot.

I wish i can take you with me. :/

Babyfats misses Bigbaby.

Kiddy misses Baby.

I Miss YOU :)

♥

2010-11-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Dear xxx, i wan hugs :)

I miss xxx.

Hope xxx sees this.

love, xxx :)

♥

Its never easy. To overcome things.

But thanks Sandra, i ♥ you :)

Today was niceeee :)

Nicest part was, feeling cold outside & warm inside. :)

oh well, :)

After my trip to genting, im going to prepare for next year.

Although i know... i will miss my sleeping baby like hell.

hmm.. :)

No matter how far apart are we, we are close tgt in out hearts :)

So far yet so near. :)

hehe. awwwwwwww~ :)

kay larh~ end of post.

Even a single smile, could turns upset things around ♥

:((

2010-11-11T21:59:00.004+08:00

I MISS YOU & I NEED YOU NOW :(

smile smile smile!!!!!!!!

2010-11-10T21:09:00.003+08:00

YAY :) i found a Job. I hope tmr will be successful.

Wooo! Thank God!! :D Super happy. :)

Today bridging was super tired.

Went to tricia hse having lunch tgt & her dear Joey poor thing :(

hmm.. shall nt say about it.

Then, watch smiling pasta too :))

woooo~ :D Then go home, i slept in the bus. woah.

too tired. reached home straight away sleep.

hehe. sweetdreams indeed :)

how i wish i can dont wake up. :)

But there is always some weird part in the dreams ._.

oh well.. haha :)

Recently, my old habit is back. I keep telling myself i cant do a good job.

& I always failed in what i tried to go through.

NOOOo~ SHOOOO! negatives thoughts shudnt be in me anymore.

i shud overcome it & HAVE FAITH in myself.

(: From today on, i will never be the past me.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY LIL GIRL :)

with my dearest baby boy.

I miss him alot. i feel guilty for what i have done.

return me the other half, i shall fixed it :)

i will always loveee you! :)

*Being together, the best clue to make it lasting, is to trust.

I trust you, baby. Do you trust me? :) *

Kboxxx!

2010-11-09T20:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY "DADDY" :)

not real dad but "yuantao papa"

o.0 someone 18 yrs old alrdy! hohoho!

But still you're a great friend. (:

Having kbox at cck then sing until sore throat. wow.

Ate alot of crackers. didnt eat lunch ._.

sing sing sing :) well... i miss baby alot luh.

Hope he faster recover. hmm.. :)

im super duper ultra tired now but i cant sleep! i havent complete my composition ._.

hai~ good luck to me then.

I hope i can do finish & meet up with amalina tmr :)

I love today,

but it can be better then youre not away ♥

XP

2010-11-08T20:06:00.002+08:00

OH MY~ Baby is fevering :(

OH WELL, eat somemore ice cream la! GOOD LUCK TO U LORH :P

Went to school, boring day uh.

Hate geog, but i try to listen but still i cant get in my brain leh. how? :(

haiiii~~~ Then maths okay la. the Ms Ching is good. :)

Chem, i was eating in class. oh my God, im going fat! :D

yay yay! hahahaha! @.@

After school, Lovee come my hse.

ransacked my room :X nah~ just kidding.

haaha! but super epic... my whole room messy luh >:(

but i packed :P

oh well, (: not a nice day, cause YOU never go school. :(

Dear XXX, I wanna let you know that you are so important to me that I could'nt s_rvive & s_cceed, without U. Love, me (: ♥

Happy 1 month, i love you! :D

2010-11-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

It may seems to be only, but to me, it means alot.

YOU make me overcome my past.

YOU make me to love again (:

YOU brings all kinds of sad & happy times to me.

YOU light up my inside world.

Because of you, there is me (:

I sayang you baby. always forever.

Thanks for giving me such "awesome & niceeee memories"

There is more to come. more more more :)

hehe. :) I love you! :)

♥

Today went to the school concert @ SP.

hahahah! awesome performances. Well, maybe because i love music. :)

GEN & VON! i spot u 2. hahaha! :D

((: Nice "eating" inside too :P haha!

&& woah~ Baby SPY lorh! spy me from the front i also duno! >.<

hehe :) but yeah. hahaha! :)

After the performances, i went out, i cant believe i SMILE to Mr Kong & me smile to me.
WOW! not the normal smile but... X) <- this type to smile.

those damm excited one. he also smile to me back. hahahaha! then after tt im wondering,

O.O i just smile to him! & he smile to me too. HAHAHA! weird but he looks kind when me smile (:

haha! :D after that went to lot & eat eat eat KFC.

& gooooo walk walk around.

:) homed.

Well baby, i duno how many times im gonna say..

From the deepest words from my heart, i love you.

Broken.

2010-11-06T21:41:00.002+08:00

Yay! today was awesome (:

Went to service with a broken heart, came back with a fixed heart.

The annoyting or God's presence is super strong.

I feel it and its super awesome.

The hands laid on my head, the feeling of falling & rose again.

The temptation to want more of this.

The feeling was great. The moment of "no regrets"

everything ended in a few seconds.

Just that few moment could light up my entire life.

I loveeeee today (:

Not only on the service part, i get to meet baby too (:

One glance, is enough, hehe (:

I feel so happy. & thanks keith for teaching me sooo many life experiences.

kay la. i wont emo liao. i want to be a happy happy little girl.

(: & i cant wait for tmr. Tmr shall be my happiest day :)

Baby, i cant wait to see you (:

THANKS tricia tay for tempting me with PASTA! >.<

Im super duper ultra hungry nowww! skipped dinner for the sake of saving money.

OH WELL, dont think of it.

but wanna watch smiling PASTA ._.

hope i can endure ._.

hehe. (: oh well, buhbyeee ♥

Hey baby, i shall buy you more SHAMPOOO or u wan SOAP? ;)

._.

2010-11-05T22:04:00.004+08:00

Well, basically went out today. cook spaghetti & bought some to bel's hse.

cell group meeting. many people.

i wish i can be really broken in front of you God, one day..

& im waiting for that day... where all my sins are wash away...

After that go home.

lalalalala. im in a bad bad mood.

but baby, i still love you.

2 more days ♥

my babyZ

2010-11-04T20:51:00.004+08:00

Im waiting for that very day. to break that very long curse of mine.

Im hoping for a hope & a forever in you.

I love you boy. Thanks for giving such nice memories.

Days with you are neither short nor long.

As long as im with you, im myself. i love being with you (:

Today went out with tricia. haha!

Go panjiang buy stuffssss :)

& walk about hahaha!

simple & fun (: Can say i miss baby alot.

get to see him, im happy (:

Tricia came to my hse, do smthings & she just went home.

Thanks Tricia, for telling me, i should think positive.

well, (: i think i shud try harder to think positive (:

U ALSO LA !! (:

Im off to watch my show now. (:

♥ I felt as though, I am the happiest girl in the world. (:

Thanks baby, for everything♥

L.O.V.E

2010-11-03T17:45:00.003+08:00

Thank God for giving me such a nice boyfriend.

A weird, silly, bad tempered, cute, sweet, loving, handsome, lazy & fat one (:

haha! Just a few days later is gonna be our 1 month.

If we could ever go pass this 7nov, im gonna tell you, im outta this curse. (:

I love him. (:

anyway~! (: today bridging almost late, thanks to tricia, being my alarm clock.

called my home & grandma wake me up.

wow.. took taxi to school. wasted $5 =.=

Yeah~ bridging was tiring...boring...

what to do. i need to buck up alrdy. trying to open my eyes whenever i can.

Maybe i should be more hyper in class, so as i wont feel sleepy.

haha! hmm...:)

after bridging, go lim bang mac. eat.

wow..~~ $$ flies. i need WORK & need to save.

hmm... :) im home now & well, nth to do. maybe watch show.

Will be missing that sleeping beauty (:

♥Out of the 6,823,000,000 people in the world, I chose you baby (:

s.m.i.l.e

2010-11-02T19:43:00.004+08:00

Times and times facing difficuly situations.

Especially find it hard to change when one is easily hot tempered.

So no matter what, smiles if it happens, dont even be sad.

Because it happens, you will get over it soon.

Every trials you faced, it just push you up into a higher level!

只要笑一笑,没什么事情大不了 :)

Today went to school for bridging.

Almost cant pull myself to wake. too tired.

eye lid cant cooperate with me, keep dropping down :O

then go school, didnt late. (:

Lessons as per normal. English teacher change to Mr Narain.

wow...? he keep staring at me.. i DUNO why?

hmmm.. and i bet he caught me sleeping in his class.

OH MY~ i read the passage until very tired.. then dozzzzzzze off~ X.x

hahahaha! After school was bored luh.

Finish up my work alrdy (:

waiting for sleeping beauty to wake. haha. :D

hmm.. and i just realise... I HAVENT DO MY COMPO! ouh OHHH..!

Got to gooooo & dooooo my worrrkkyy. byeeeee ♥

I wanna eat spaghetti ♥

:)

2010-11-01T19:49:00.005+08:00

Beautiful isnt it?
piglet!! :)

Today as USUAL got cca, wake up very early then go to school.

then, cca, abit sian diao. boring. baby come and find me (:

after that actually no senior come de, but in the end florence come.

Why put me in-charge, since thel already bu shuang me.

hais. i duno wads with them ._.

but, yeah~ im trying to change. its super hard. i admit.

even yesterday, i could not control my temper.

but, :) i tired.

After cca, go~ pastamania, then go find baby

go cck park. he skate, i slack.

took picturessss with tricia's piglet & play around. hahaa!

:D then home sweet home.

well, baby having headache again :(

takekaiire. ♥ you (:

sweet♥

2010-10-31T23:41:00.003+08:00

I love today ♥
hehe (: well, cca yeah~ bad bad bad~
haha! Got CPR & AED test. well its EASY.

yeah~ & after that went to bugis.

Meet up with baby & go walk around eat. shop.

haha! :) simple but to me, the 3 hours, meant alot to me (:

Every moment with you is great.

& i wish this friday, could break that damm record of mine.

♥

& cant wait for Tmr too :D

CCA & do some THINGS. (:

haha~ kay. ♥

im off~ (:

Baby, thankss alot :)

To cute girl, im sorry if im the cause of your scolding.

I dont know, but i really didnt mean it.

If im at fault, im really sorry. :(

:)

2010-10-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

Today everything is fine~ yeah..~

Talk to my dad. like finally~ haha.

& err.. morning cook with my grandma. haha!

Prepared myself, go lot find keefy & jack to eat & cab down.

service was great. Pastor Kong rocks! his lesson are sooooo interesting.

With one super funny story! haha!

after service go makan makan & CIC class.

& homed. hahaha!

Well, today fun is fun. lesson learn ALOT.

& yeah, i miss you, baby boy. alot. alot.

I have hope in our future. cause wad i had learned today,

HOPE = Have Only Positive Expectations

As long as there is hope, there is life!

I wont be afriad of our future, i BELIEVES that we can be together, forever. (:

I ♥ Baby (:

Be happy.

2010-10-30T11:02:00.005+08:00

Many things is hard to face. Its really hard to communicate with my dad for me now.

Its really hard to change my attitude in my family.

Its really hard. & I have always thought to be a bad child my my parents eyes,

since im always NEVER better than my sister.

One bad thing, i love to compare with my sis.

I always tells my mum, go and find my sis, dont talk to me.

cause im a bad child. I always slack, i always fail my maths, im always DUMB,

and i can never go to JC, university or wadever. im always at NA standard.

My dad once, always encourages me... but now.. NEVER.

Cause i know to him, i changed. All he believes, is wad he sees. He sees my behaviour at home.

Not wad i want to be... is wad i have always pretended to me.

IM NOT MYSELF.

But why.... its always mummy who open my CLOSED heart at home.

& yet im always saying negative things to her. She is the one i always and love most.

She is always there for me. & she is the only one who knows me well.

Maybe because of her perserverance, i can perservere till today..

I decided to change my attitude at home. Well, i hope i can do it.

Im feel very sorry especially towards my mum. I am not good at studies, but i want to be a good child.

Its hard to change, but i believe i can. & i will. (:
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Yesterday not posting, is because i got really bad mood.. & i duwan post such words in my blog.

Well, i think im very tired. Physically..

Went out to school early early in the morning for CCA.

well, im never wrong saying this.. but i know.

SMALL little things, put me in-charge, then big things leh, treat me like Nothing.

its okay. i wont care anyway. Because CCA officors are BIASED.

i hope they sees this and think about what they did. Sorry is useless... really.

What they do, is already done. All my effort are wash to drain.

All they sees are the bad points. wad for? There are more things, that they didnt see.

Even more things that i work hard for. They didnt see.

Now all i could say is, their way of finding a good cadect is BAD. real BAD.

Well, not my problem. & yesterday after cca, went home and changed.

Eat sushi with baby, clement, grace, jerome, juan qing, zhi jin, iris, sara, firdaus & benson.

super funny and fun, haha!

got wasabi competitions. wahahahaha! every guys mouth BURN. hahahha!

wasabi is not really hot eh.. i tried. haha! :P

OH YEAH~

Happy belated birthday to TRICIA (loveee)

Happy birthday to CLEMENT (lemon)

Happy birthday to AFIQAH

Happy birthday to JONATHAN

((: so many people's birthday. All the babies grow up! :D

After sushi, went with baby buy food & go CGM.

CGM, was a great lesson. except im too tired to get excited.

Well, really. Peace is, peace with God, peace with one another, peace with the world & most impoartantly, peace with yourselves!

Praise for everything

Everything with prayer

Always think positively

Contentment in all studies

Expectations of all strengths.

Hmm... i dont know wad to say but, God is a good God. (:

Baby, thanks for always being a weirdo. haha! :P
I love you ♥

How strong am i?

2010-10-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

Life is so unfair. Im enough...

I WANT TO PUT A STOP. i really really feel like putting a stop from here.

Im really really tired. I need a long long break.

How am i going to struggle through this.

IM SUPER STRESS NOW.

WHY NO ONE SEEMS TO UNDERSTANDS ME.

I NEED A LISTENING HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

C.A.M.P

2010-10-27T22:44:00.005+08:00

Camp was fun fun fun (:

But still, i miss sec 2 class luh.

Start of the day, go to school and bla bla bla.

went there, first activity is zip line.

LOL. the instructor on top damm fierce siahhhh!!

I scared, he PURPOSELY ask me go first.

im like WADDD la. i shout when i jump.

OMG. ...

then abseiling. LOL.

lucky i didnt bang the wall like last year :XX

After that, is the so call build the boat.

lols. i use damm alot of strength and my hand got blister.

funny part is, the blister position is exactly the same as baby's hand (: right hand too. lols.

Then go water confidence. SUPER DUPER FUN :D

At night got night walk. lols.

Next day, KAYAK. WOOTS!

loving it. its super fun! haha! & very tired cause jun xiang la. keep resting.

then i keep rowing the boatyy.

Saw baby too (: haha! SPLASH ME WATER!

Mr lim also splash. Jerome also splash. 1 guy more worst. hit me on my head with his padel.

woah~ someone ppl bang boat here and there.

haha! and jun xiang la! almost make our boat capsized. WOW?

my heart beat stop for a moment. l0ls!

after that is cycling. haha! tired but fun (:

sad thing is, i got stomach ache while i ride. ohh myy God.

Then, rech back camp site, prepared for camp fire.

wah.. class not cooperative.. cant think of things to dance.

Jackson, me, celia, ashraf, ramdan, sathia & abi, is the few of us that help.

In the end, me and Celia thought of the "pink panther" song. HAHA! cute :)

Then, me and ashraf think of the dance moves on "knock you down"

super difficult to think. then last minute anyhow dance. haha.

Class 3/3 is super cute, see them dance pink panther from the front, everyone is super cute!
haha! :) fun :)

Then camp fire was fun. Jackson dance FUNNY AH!

hahaha! i cant stop laughing at his chicken dance :X

MUST SEE HOW HE DANCE LO.

dance in front of Mr kong, and mr kong was laughing at him too. haha!

Sleeeping was a diffculty too.

Airplanes is so noisy. hahaha!

Camp was seriously awesome (:

1 thing good is, instructors didnt look down on us(:

One sad thing, i miss baby alot.

even though i see him, is hard to communicate.

EYES EVERYWHERE.

hmm.. Misses him though.

haha! I cant sleep everynight, but when i think of him, my thoughts bring me to dream (:

haha! cooolll (:

okay, its a long post. cause its 3 in 1. haha

went home after camp by taxi.

and DOZE OFF. wooooo...

And later, evening, Went out today with shavon & tricia.

Walk past this selling lense thingy,

and went to buy contact lense. cool.

it took me 3 sec alright ;)

haha! :D so happpyyyy~~

Went to west mall. Sweet moments ((:

Baby came after that. He this sleepy pig ((:

They eat, im just looking.

And took taxi home with baby.

:) well, tired but nice day.

I pretended the airplanes in the night skies are shooting stars.

I made a wish for you Baby, I hope it do come true. (:

i love you (:

2010-10-24T22:10:00.004+08:00

I love you, because you made me worried.

I love you, because you are dumb.

I love you, because you always make me feel so crazy over missing you.

I love you, because you make me overcome my past.

I love you, because you meant everything to me.

I love you, because you brightened up my world.

I love you, because you were there with me always.

I love you, because you are sweet.

I love you, because you are cute.

I love you, because you plays piano.

I love you, because you are special.

I love you, for who you are (:

Today was a headache day.

Watched too much show.

I woke at 1pm and eat eat eat then watch watch watch.

The show "the outsiders" is damm nice ((:

Im super crazy today.

guess what? you believe, till now i haven even packed a single stuffs??

hahahah! :))

its okay~ gonna pack nowww :D

Super duper ultra happy!

OH YA! i cut my hair today. hahahahh!

went out with von to lot eat and buy stuffs for tmr.

then saw clement and jun sheng.

lol eh. clement keep making himself a fool in front of the crowd.

yeah and chatted with shavon many many stuffs.

ate mac flurry. wooohhooo (:

0kay ah. i go pack alrdy.

Mum's nagging! haha! BUHBYE :D

Baby Baby :D

40% Missing you, 60% Loving you.

2010-10-23T23:37:00.005+08:00

Well, the picture of the Frog was quite lame :D

I played tricia's ifone. and it just cant get to EAT that lolipop!

haha! :O

Baby's having BBQ. he is GETTING FAT!

yay yay! hahahahaha~ :P

:)))) Although im quite sad for WAITING. but i know i know i know (:

I love him.

hmmm (: well, today's service was awesome.

and great and fun and lalalalal.

learn alot of things.

CIC class too. haha. :))

Great yeah~

well, now chatting with people. wow.

I have got some OMG FACTS.

hmm.... seriously la! OMG!!!

something unbelievable..

hmm... :O

OKAY` stop stop stop.

thinking too much ...

lols. kay~ im going off ((:

buhbye~!

Baby, sweetdreams (: i always love you!! :D

Youre like a dream come true.

2010-10-22T23:54:00.002+08:00

Today wake up very early at 7.30am.

oh my God. go school take report book.

well, failed express maths again.

hmm... so tired today.

went out with baby and then go cgm.

cgm was a great learn.

((:

webcam with baby and his sister damm cute.

haha! too bad baby, youre nt cute :P

haha kidding. (:

oopsss :X

I miss you eh. see you during camp :O

haha. cant wait for CAMP.

great. (:

oh well, im gone for now.

bye (:

You're my dream come true. (:

Cause baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again (:

2010-10-21T23:08:00.003+08:00

Heard that many people retain.
Tmr gonna take report book.

Today had "much" fun with the girls.

Played DDR was the best.

cause im missing the past times, wherby every weekend is like an arcade day to me.

well, nt feeling real well.

emotionally hurt.

sorry heart, for the biggest heart attack today.

ended up crying like a fool for nothing.

because im afraid to LOSE you.

Missing it. (:

2010-10-19T18:44:00.002+08:00

Makes me remember the first time i ever talk to you.

The time where we play piano together.

The time, where i found there is this person that could overcome my past.

Its you, baby (:

Im missing you right now.. (:

Sometimes, there are some things you do not wish for it to come true.

But im not gonna let those things affect now.

I just wanna be happy. I will find a way out (:

Sad with my results?

I failed eng, but now, teacher push up my marks. i failed by 1mark.

but my CA marks can help me push up so consider pass?

My express maths, teacher keep saying i can i can~ but why do i ALWAYS get 30 plus upon 100?

=.= terrible. i lost FAITH in maths...

Failed chemistry too. i thought i would PASS. omg. i failed by 1 mark. damm chemistry!

MISTAKES!!!!!!!!

&& luckily my physics pass my 1 mark =.= so combine science pass...

& last but not least. i flunk geog. (:

well~ i think its not the worst yet.

At least i pass my ss (just pass), pass my history, pass my a maths (hope its distinction ^^), pass my chinese ( i cant believe my own eyes when i see my compo result)

haha~ well, its okay~ Im gonna learn from my mistakes.

I guess i will spent less time out soon...

I need to study already.

but not today. i need a rest.

watching devil beside you.

nice and sweet and romantice and lalalalalalal~

[[ I still thank God for grace & strength (: ]]

baby, i miss you sososososososo much (:

You made my day (:

2010-10-18T23:23:00.003+08:00

Well, today can say its not my day.

But you made it end quite well. (:

i failed english by 3 marks, maths very badly done, geog flunk it.

Pass physics by 1 mark.... & history passed.

Not sastified with my marks.. and I feel that i let down sandra and jon :(

& the most is making baby worried.

i was so sad in class. hmmm. but feeling better.

Thanks baby, sorry to make u worried :(

To my lovveee, you finally step out of the black clouds of yours.

Told you, you can do it.

But make sure, you say you will you must ah.

rmb? you told me.. 说到做到 (:

Jia you luh (:

Well, today met up with w450 dinner was nice.

so full (: haha. Vivi bday~ tmr~ :)

Today sent baby home, i thot this is all i could do.

I feel so stupid so tense up so fustrated with myself.

I hope i can share the burden with you,

I hope i can be the one, feeling how you feel.

Put-ing myself in your shoes, i know. i know the pain.

See-ing you like that, its even painful.

What can i do? Cry. no.

If i ever did. im a super ultra loser.

I wanna be the one to light up your world, released ur pain.

Lighten your burden, share your pain.

All i could say, how could i ever do.

Im useless.. i wish if its me... so that you wont feel so pain..

i really hope its me... im nt stupid / dumb.

Im just hoping, to help.

I feel the pain, inside you.

You may not know but im just faking a smile everyday...when seeing you in pain. :(

I may be dumb, but all i want is to see your smile.

thats enough (: (i know thats stupid =.=)

baby, my greatest joy. (:

2010-10-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

Well, i was kind of pissed today
but thanks to people cooling me down.
Almost got accident today. thanks to the taxi uncle.
hmmm...
I miss that baby.

Hope he can sleep and rest well tonight.

Im thinking no more, because all i think is now,

being with you is my greatest joy. (:

Tmr or future come first? :/

Happy saturday

2010-10-16T21:13:00.005+08:00

WELL~ today was great :)

Service was awesome funfunfun :)

haha! Many lesson learn. plus another 1hr of lessons.

haha. hmm (:

Blink blink* Got my vision, rising in church (:

hehe (: shall wait. [:

hmm..

Everyone been through difficulties, crisis.. sad things..

but do you even know that, Only through crisis, you then can see your own weaknesses.

when you know your weaknesses, you then can go stronger each time.

I know my lovee is going through it.

I feel like slapping that thick skin guy face for you, lovee.

Dear lovee, you made the right choice. cheer up.

God, is always there for you (:

okay~ (:

Well, im off alrdy ah~ bye people.

im starting to watch SHOWS XD

"devil beside you" -rainie yang is CUTE-

hahahaah!

I dont entertain lame people(:

Baby, i miss you alot lehh.... ):

See you tmr? (:

Loving day (:

2010-10-16T00:33:00.003+08:00

Well, today was AWESOME! :D

Met up with Baby, Shavon, Tricia, Iris, Jerome & Juan Qing.

woots ^.^ go watch movie. called "CHILD'S EYE"

kind of scary when the "ghost' POP out.

errr~ yeah and the show is touching luh.

But still, i dun really like ghost movie. almost cried. heh..

someone disturb me say i SCARED :/

o.o then go walked around.

go bukit batok for BBQ.

Shavon met up with 2 other friends.

and met jackson, weng yi but iris left.

cool and fun :)

Aww~ its totally awesome. Imagine play bball again! :D

haha! && yeah just so awesome. haha!

Baby didnt feel left out. everyone enjoyed

eat eat eat && play~ haha!

MY 2nd FAMILY :)

they all disturb me luh! with the Mr Z thingy. haha!

Oh yeah~ and duwan T.T to sad.

Damm that guy and get over him okay?

He is not worth a single tears of yours. (:

cheerrs :))

at least, i helped you said wad you need to say.

I promise, you made the right choice.

yup im done with post yeah.

I miss baby. (:

5 more days?? :(

To someone that YOU know who you are:

Get over and done with, thats what you said.

Hope you sees this and understand.

Maybe you dont, but you will someday.

Its over. All the past? Dont think of it.

There is never another chance to make things back again.

bye. & takecare.

I said it, i mean it. (:

Happy & carefree~

2010-10-14T23:22:00.012+08:00

Took when amalina came my hse ;)

I was at tution using calculator...and... (:

Today was REAL fun! :D

Had fun with GIRLFRIENDS!!! at gen house playing WII watching ghost movie.

like OMG la. hahah!

Im the ONLY one got the biggest reaction.

haha xD and her piano RAWKS la.

So nice to play :) awwww~ i wish to get a new piano soon. hmmm (:

&& go lot shop and walk and eat and saw oliver.

he is sooooo..... URGH! duno wad he posted at FB or smting. wahhhh~~~T.T

Cause im with baby (:

Home sweet home soon [:

I love today. I love tmr more.

Time to get SHOCK SHOCK :D

SHAVON! YAY! HAPPY FOR YOU XD

Thank God, you make me know somethings i didnt realise till today :)

There is so many great things in life.

I promise to treasure everything..especially you, baby (:

My life became sweet because of you (:

So deep..Just so deep.

2010-10-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

Exams are over. Holidays are coming.
Not happy. Cause baby going overseas ):
& i now understand why baby is so stress..
But what can i do? Sad? Cry? Emo?
Nah..~ I must stand strong. rite?
If i were to break down, why do i have the rights to ask him stand back up?
Baby, dont face alone. I face things with you. (:
Im here.
& yeah~ today post ((:
Gonna thank God for strength, knowledge & Grace :)
awwww well~ Amen? haha :D
Happy that stress are reduce~ 1/2 of it. 1/2 of it... i hope i could [:
& yeah~ lalalalla~ nothing much uh.okay bye.

I wish my dream come true..

Aww~

2010-10-12T20:50:00.002+08:00

Well, today was awesome.

AWESOME GEO =.=

haha. i think i flunk geog only.

haha! its oookkaay~~~~ geog is nt fun at all~ haha!

Tmr last paper!!!! YAY! HAHAHAH! XD

im going SIAO again! xD

yay yay! PHYSICS! study study. haha!

today with amalina, i totally enjoy and go crazy again!

haha! draw with her~ and she say it looks like ........ :X

then chat alot la.

about pri sch stuffs, now the things and blah blah blah~

haha! saw alot of pri sch friends at lim bang mac. cool or wad?

;)

haha! aww~ baby is a pig. sleep sleep sleep :) haha!

tmr meeting my stead, amalina to go mac! yay! woohooo~~

&& tmr got TUTION =.= ARGH! damm. hmm.

then meet Jon :))

yup yup. gonna have chat~ haha!

okay then~ byeeee.. crazy mee :)

Baby baby (:

Baby.

2010-10-11T17:55:00.003+08:00

Well, today was another exam day~ wow...~~

Exam exam exam~ i didnt study for it.

cause i was at the star cruise.

but thank God, maths and science chemistry was not bad for me.

Not too hard. and manage to finish except my maths 10 marks fly away.

O.O

well, short post today. im going sleep soon!

Baby, you know that youre the dream i never want to let go of.

Even if things really becomes the way you thought,

i will find my way through. and i will find you.

all i need.. is time.

cheer up. ((:

although youre nt the first, but youre the last.

I love you. forever. forever. forever [:

I will prove it to you, that things isnt that bad at all, as long as im here with you (:

Star Cruise

2010-10-11T17:35:00.018+08:00

The place where i wish you were here with me.

Im always with you.

2010-10-10T21:52:00.003+08:00

Okay~ im back home.

hmm.. (: Went out with Baby study and slack? [:

Maths and Chem (sci) tmr.

Need to pass.... arghh~ damm... :(

exams exams... Must work harder~~

btw today me and baby wear same colour short.

same type. wow. so coincidence. haha!

people duno thot its couple tee :)

Okay i shall not post much.

Today's post is to my dearest Baby.

Baby dun sad. Im always here.

Even if the world turns upside down, I will be here around.

Nothing will happen, trust me.

trust yourself too. you can do it (:

Baby, i love you. ;)

Star Cruise.

2010-10-10T13:17:00.003+08:00

hello. im back from star cruise. haha..!

Well, its fun and not fun. cause fun, i enjoyed mostly.

Not fun, when its nt with my friends, when its nt with you baby, when almost everything needs to be 18 and above. obviously nothing much to do ther!

First day, eat like mad because knowing that the food is free..

Check in room and pack pack stuffs... & watch magic show?

lalallaal~~ went explore around.

I love the big blue sea :))

Its seems so peaceful~~

Second day, ate break fast, walk & shop around.

at the hall, i saw Grand Piano.

OMG. so damm nice xD

In love with it. hmmm.... if only i can go up and play and if only i got one.

Walked pass this fortune teller, cost 50 bucks.

& they said alot on my future.. but i think nt all is true.

haha. got 1 thing they say i will get married at 26/27 yrs old

lol...? true or wad? i duno. haha.

kay~ yeah and after that family go SWIM?!

but i didnt go. lazy and dun wan.

& played my cousin ifone game.

wahh~~ i tried soooo hard to just break his record but attempt failed.

then i forgot do wad..go back hotel room.

cause aldult all go bet money. =.=

then go karaoke. err.... no more i guess..?

Nah~ to boring to rmb.

& didnt slept last night cause just to sit at the bench waiting for the sunrise.

very tired now. go sleep. and get nag... i dun wan eat breakfast NEED YOU CARE?

fuck off la. damm you.

my uncle and aunt i hate them ah=.=

f***ers. love to F so much. everyday say the F***ing F WORD.

then influence me and my sis. totally pissed off by them-.-

is this the way they treat their child? -.-

all F word out. i feel like shouting to them STFU la. wan F so much go off and F all u wan -.-

totally morning mood was ruin.

didnt wanna talk to them. fucking irritating.

wtf is wrong with me? cause i get influence by you all?

EVEN MY SIS STARTS TO SAY F***.

now wad. IM PISSED -.-

hope i dun get so much influence... really hate it.. ADULTS =.=

haisx. forget all these... ,....

normally start cruise was bad because i miss you alot :(

cant sms you cant talk to you cant see you

I look out to the sea, hoping today would come so i can see you..

:( hais. but finally all over! (: gonna see baby later :D

okay im done with this post. its the last time im gonna get pissed with posting.

no more vulgar.. i promise. just over flamed.

I hope God can bring me through all these. ):

I need you now, Jesus. I trust in you.

upload pictures next time.

I love you (:

bye people and bye baby :(

2010-10-08T15:21:00.004+08:00

Im going off in a moment. & Im gonna miss singapore, friends, family & you, baby.

Star cruise, i wonder is it fun? ;)

Gonna take many many pictures!

hahah~ random pic? :P

awww well~ i duno :P

okay short post.

Im going off at 4.50pm? :)

Baby, you are everything to me (:

I miss you & I love you.

Study hard alright? You can do it :)

Dun wanna baby to fail :(

so must study hard! :) See you soon? :) takekaiire ^^

Je t'aime Baby :)

Dont miss me too much, because if you do,

I will miss three times more than you..

i love you

2010-10-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

Well, im lucky to know you. Through piano, then i know you? :)

I love you Baby. [:

07/10/10 [21:21pm] :)

Everywhere i go, you appears in my mind.

2010-10-06T22:20:00.012+08:00

Well, studying with Jackson and Gen was fun? Most importantly is.. i DID learn alot.

[: heh heh. Didnt care A maths so much cause i know i can do it. Focus on SS.

AWWW~ SS DOING SS :) cool or wad?

hehe! Thinking** many many things..((:

&& okay la. short post. gonna go study now. byeee :)

I wish you were here with me.

I miss you? (:

2010-10-06T17:44:00.011+08:00

Today, posted alot of random photos. hehe :P
Nothing much but kind of nothing to do in class.

Write some small "notes" in class :P

&& even *thinking* / *Daydreaming* in class.

hopefully tmr exam can pass. cause i just worried on SS only. A maths can one :)

jia youuu too everyoneee :))

Okay short post today.

Gonna meet Gen & Jackson.

awww~ Aku sayang "gros bébé" [:

hehe. okay byebye :P

Everyday, im happy.

Why? Cause of you (:

you,re the only one that can change me.

2010-10-05T20:19:00.013+08:00

Okay. sorry for just now the post. i edited.

hope no one sees it (:

I thank God for having such a naggy and nice mum.

But my dad...? hais. i duno la.

Life is really stress for me especially during this period.

I was totally flame up just now, and almost go so violent, but nt to u

why? i duno. hmm :)

okay then. short post. basically, those pictures above are what i took when im damm bored in class :P

0kay. bye people. i need to study well..

i dun wanna be a BAD KID in ur mind.

I prove you wrong, and make sure you have nth to nag about me!

okay. byebye :)

J'aime la façon dont vous sourire et air innocent .. cute (:

damm.

2010-10-04T16:10:00.002+08:00

Today english exam. damm... situation writing, and composition both didnt do really well..
I redo both of them. but at least manage to do finish but situation i wrote too much :/
Now weng yi, zac and amalina at my hse. kinda bad mood now.
just saw a video.. that i would never want to see AGAIN! >:(
hais. i duno wad to say now. so BYE.

Exams are really stress.

Worried Sick Dumb Dumb.

2010-10-03T22:32:00.008+08:00

Tution > Met Shavon > Orchard > Shop > Study > Homed .

(: Today was sick. haha. cause i feel so giddy until i feel like fainting T.T

& Im worried about you la dumb. so careless... :(

Kind of sickk noww :/ really..

I wish Tmr engish MUST PASS.

Hmm.. short post.

I just sad for you. :/

Get well soon.

I never know that You can mean so much to me.

w450, my family (:

2010-10-02T21:28:00.002+08:00

Yup! and once again i CAB to church. LOLS.

:'( money flies.. cause im late. haha! but its okay :)

For you Jesus, i dun wanna miss a second of your service (:

If you all realise, im very tired today and not much of a hyper mood.

exams exams exams you know... stressful. Well, i really wanna shine for God.

I dont wanna fail a sub!

English on Mon. I really hope God answer my prayer. I WANT TO PASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today was nice (: Finally service got 1 song i know one.

makes me love ittt :))

&& today i got bullied.

ahhh... ytd the thing is... not like what YOURE thinking kay!

hmm.. (: and thanks YAP for treating family meal KFC.

ate alot. im going FAT! >.<

&& I wish to get unlimited sms soon!! ahhh!!!

Coz... i wanna help smsing msges. pass down msg,

spam people, chat with people, many many things!! ahh!! :(

and i saw 1 sony ericson fone today COOL.

touch screen and type one. but.. its big and ex.. $400 plus leh! siao.

hahahha! lalalla im still in my dreamland :(

ok.. im done with daydreaming. haha! byebye :)

God, strengthen me please (:

I feels like im a happy little kid (:

Kiddy Me (:

2010-10-02T12:29:00.002+08:00

Okay okay~ I admit im a kid alright. hahahaha!

Nvm. Im a little kid. [:

Feel like blogging now and i duno why.

hahahs! :D Nice sleep yesterday.

I slept till 12pm! WOW. :)

haha! Nah~ thats not the latest i have slept. Got once i slept till 2 plus plus plus:X

Preparing to go church.

Im so eggcited! cause.. every saturday is my greatest joy.

I hope i could learn something from the lesson today. [:

something meaningful. & later got fellowship.

YAP YAP owe me a meal. haha!

I cant wait exams to be over~~ :)

but i cant wait to study hard too. because i dun wan a FAIL. EVEN MY MATHS! :@

so~ i must kambateh~ :)

I wish everyone kambateh in their exams/life/everything too :)

okay~ im off now [:

What Will Jesus Do? (:

Its a long long journey.. to get to know you (:

Thyy Dark Alley.

2010-10-02T00:04:00.002+08:00

Great. Now is the 369 post in my blog. lols.

Today went home after MT paper. Normal bah? Hope i can pass..

Went to Izyan hse.. "study".

After that go lot, with amalina awhile.

& go CGM. i was dead tired when i reach ther.

I feel so dead today.. kind of.

I wish tmr could made my day.

I feel so depressed now..

I want to believe in myself that I could walk out this Dark Alley of my life.

I believe i can. I do.

I may have failed many times. But i thought twice.

Im gonna get through this time.

Im not gonna think anymore. I just want to be happy.

& i know what im doing.

okay. im going off. so bye.

I believe you could light up my world.

Im gonna Shine for You! ^^

2010-09-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

Although i have not been doing well for my Chinese so far.

I just wish for a PASS. (:

hmm. I really hope so. and you big bully must pass ur MT IDC AH!

&yeah~ today got bullied man. sooo bad. argh.. :(

&& NIGHTS :) & bye.

Tmr, its the first paper. KAMBATEH~!

The world means everything to me, and you are my world (L)

Fun day (:

why did you keep appearing in my mind :/

2010-09-30T16:01:00.004+08:00

Im so tired now that i could really.. faint.

Going sleep. Blog now cause night time nt using com alrdy i guess.

Well, im super sorry to my girlfriends :(

I wish there is another time to study. but today i really headache like hell..

hmm... night time i must buck up my chinese le. left 1 day.

I duno why i felt this way, but i simply think that you should think twice.
I really thought it is impossible.. but i turns out to be possible..

My heart tells me so..

ignoring you! :)

2010-09-29T22:43:00.003+08:00

Okay! short short post today :)

2nd post today btw. hahas!
Came home in about 30mins before? hahas!
Go lot find Tricia and Zachary (:
haha! Zac is so kind yeah? still come accompany. hahas!
Yeah... and im so totally ignoring you next time :)
although attemp fail 4 times! hahas!
Tricia ah Tricia, hope you know wad youre doing. hmm.. all i can say is.. thinking properly.
Is your decision, worth your unhappiness? Think about it.
&& last but not least, hahah nth alrdy :X
kay. im going study NOW. byeee :)) lovelove you all readers :)
God, strengthen me today. I need alot of energy (:

When you smile, my whole world stops and stares awhile, cause youre amazing, just the way you are (: you are (:

I think...i..

2010-09-29T16:13:00.004+08:00

[Im just looking at my own heart and wondering..

when have you step in...]

Studying the whole day today.

From now till evening im studying at home.

At night, i duno wads my plan yet. hmm.

Omg..I dont know why.. but im wondering.. what are you doing now..

A suitable heart of mine, where are you?

2010-09-28T16:06:00.008+08:00

Look at the score. Cool. hahas! Played DDR after soo long (:
I got A [full combo! yay!] & B for expert mood. x3 yay!
and von too^^ she got ACE. hahas!
not bad ah. so long didnt play le. the happy feeling is still there :D

Hey all. post for today :D
Yesterday was not fully my day. My night..
I went out with von gen and tricia to lot, after Gen has come my hse.
So, we went to mac. and eat abit, talk.
No mood to study. hmm. with von played DDR. hahas.
and homed. Stuffs happen. bad bad stuffs.
& thank "you" for being there. although you duno how to convience ppl well (:
yup. Im better now. and.. i sometimes really wish parents could understand their child well..
Not that i dont want study at home. Is that, i need a partner to study with me.
If i ever bring friend to my house, i scared my grandma dun like you know.
hais. im trying my best to do the best for everyone.
and me. and.. yup. when i do my best, God will do the rest (: amen!
hahas! :D yeah great. I reached home already.
Maybe meeting someone later :)
and yeah. nothing else la. hahahah!
dun wan talk too much le. byeee :)
God, put me into different trials and mould me into more like you. Strengthen me and I know i will be able to walk out of this misery and move on to a bigger challenge. (:

I hope to find a suitable heart. 1 is enough. A heart that holds my key. (:

study study!

2010-09-27T17:11:00.002+08:00

Yooo~ With Gen at my house now :P

hahahs! Study really really hard.

nothing much to post. Hope today can make full use of time to study.

hahahah! today got Mood swing. haha!

AND at canteen today, Gen, Caroline and Weng Yi was playing with me

till i got chilli backside. hahaha! :X

Thanks to Gen, She use my 99.9% Germs Free Dettol Wet Wipes to wipe my butt.

hahahahah! so funny! :) but, most importantly, its the memories we have tgt as gf after so long

hahas! >

Matthew 6:34

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow wil worry about itself" (:

Starbucks!

2010-09-26T21:32:00.011+08:00

Ahhh!!! Im listening to "Just The Way You Are"

I think im in love with that song :P

I duno why. hahas! ahhh!! love that song :D

Yup today went out with Shavon.

Go starbucks study and drink ^^

saw Mr James Ng. GOT SO SUAY MA?

hahas! && 2 dumb guys come and talk to us.

im like listening to songs and doing A maths.

Then the guy was like fooling around waving at me and ask, can i lend calculator?

I pass him and he didnt take. He say wanna joing table? like that easier.

cause im using calculator too =.=

me and von was like WTH? then i say noo..?

He act cute to me one sad face. wth!

And then im like err...? haha..

And i turn and do my work.

LOL? totally. and he disturb us 3-4 times?

like ask.. where you are from? sec wad.. blah blah~

lols! SO funny la! Me and Von was like eye contact. hahas!

After studying for hours, around evening, go walk around JP :P

YAY! bought shorts and new bible. hehes ^^

Go buy hair band.

haha! Nice one von :P

yeah~ just walking around.

enjoy today :)

Exams are drawing nearer. God, please ensure me i can walk through these stressful days.

[: bye.

And When you smiles, the whole world stops and stares awhile.

Cause Youre amazing, just the way you are (:

awesome :D

2010-09-25T23:20:00.002+08:00

awesome saturday~ church yeah :D

Totally sitting in front, just behind pastor was awesome.

totally~! :D can feel God so strong there. :)

Gonna study hard now. :D

yay! love my lifeee :D

I have found, my hope.

I have found, my purpose.

Its all in Your house :)

God, im hoping you could tell me, who is the "someone" im waiting for to come.

Going out ~

2010-09-25T12:27:00.002+08:00

Going Church soon (:

May today be another awesome weekend! :D

exams are coming.. must study harder lerh! :)

BYE PEEPS.

27/09/10 is coming nearer.. something's happening.. good or bad.. doesnt matter.

as long as, me/he/she/or they could get over it.

i caught 3-4 things happening on that day. there must have been more..

gosh.. my six sense is so accurate? .. :/

sometimes i wish its not. maybe its the word of God.

haha! kay bye :)

update tonight :)

Happy Day~

I thank God its FRIDAY! ^w^

2010-09-24T23:23:00.004+08:00

Yesterday studying in library! hahas! [thanks to sara, the photographer!]

hahas! ^^ I wanna take photo with loovvveee, sarang haeyo, choo choo, tissue & prawn! XD

hahas! ^^ yay! 5 cute ones :D

and wifey, i didnt forget you too :DD

come tmr wifey! dun emo and you need morning call? :D

Im meeting them at 1pm at "worst" coffee shop. hahas!

no la its "best" coffee shop. sms me yeah wifeyyy :D

we go eat lunch tgt ((: love love. hehes! ^^

Today was awesome? chinese class was funny la.

im like saying "YAY!" so loud cause i got 5/20 instead of 1/20.

haha!! so pathetic. im happy for that 5 marks yet no passes :X

WEIRDDDDDDDDDD!

&& saw Zachary, Ashraf, BuBu, Trisha [did i spell wrong?], Shafie, Ariff & Firdaus in LRT. hahas!

so surprising. but nice surprise :D it made my ending day. haha!

YAY! okay~ im 0ff now (: goodbyeee~~

:PPP

In your name, im standing here for you God.

Because of you, its who i am today.

You lift me up and turn my dead heart alive.

Show me the way Father, i will follow ur path.

To the road of righteouness.

You gave me many things. Everything in my life, were from you.

My family, my life, my dreams, my hope, my cell group, my own belongings, myself..

How could i ever finish thanking you..? To worship and praise you, its how i repay you.

Thank God for EVERYTHING! I love you God :D

Jesus, the First and the Last. amen! ^^

._. the dream i dreamt, will it come true? (:

Taking Pills.

2010-09-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

1 Year 2 months ago. I have been taking a weird pill called the "unbreakable dream".

Makes me dreamt that i could never wake up.. a dream that is always a DREAM.

It can never come true. Today is the day.. i got rid that pill in my life.

Im waking up. Facing the reality. That my world holds no more dreams but aims.

It holds no more hope but Faith. Holds no more "if only" but "will".

Shall get back up and continue moving in my life. I have wasted 1 year 2 months.

Its really a long ride. Im off that ride and not addicted to that drug anymore.

Once, someone told me to find that key in my life.

I have lost that key. But today, im gonna find that key back again.

To open my dead, frozen, bottled heart.

God is a good God. Because of his Faith, he brought me back to him.

I'll never let you go Father. and i know you will help me find that "key".

May the unwanted be gone and welcome the new life.

Forgive, and forget. [:

Im sorry.

Stressful days.

2010-09-23T15:33:00.004+08:00

I really dont want to feel stress.

I just hope my maths could be as easy as ABC someday..

till i know how to ans qns without thinking.

cause thinking makes me lost my brain cells! arghhh!!!

._. Now at home. not attending supplementary lessons cause i find it useless.

I need to distress and study hard.

I find my days more and more stress.. may exams be over soon.. REALLY!

I need a "break" [: bye.

When a girl becomes a lady..

mistakes.

2010-09-23T06:52:00.003+08:00

Hey all! sorry for late post(:

yesterday was.. kind of fun? :))

Go school. lessons blah blah blah~

and CCA. haha! got exam. which i didnt prepared.

but i cant believe i still rmb the CPR procedure :DD

hahaha!! bandage also lucky lucky PASS one!

TOC fail ah~! hahaha!

after cca, went Jurong Point meet my annoying mummy.

hahas! she called me TOAD T.T

cause i go sch everytime slow slow..

and i called her MUMMY TOAD! hahahahah!

Singing was fun and eat alot of things.

got pork, chicken, duck, lobsters, vegetables, noodles, shark fin.

wah alot ah~! hhahahs!

k bah~ im off to school now (:

&& pictures will upload soon (: BUHBYE! ^^

Its just all mistakes. So, its time to correct it.

Is it possible?

2010-09-21T21:12:00.005+08:00

Through "You" nothing is impossible right?

I trust in you. Show me the way God.

I felt wrong to continue already. why? is this because you told me so?

27/09/10 [this date.. really hurts me the most.]

hurts.. to see the ppl i love & treasure.. going away. either "away" or the "wrong way"

I dont wish so.. Im gonna Pray for it.

&& i saw "your" facebook. dont feel guilty will you?

DONT EVER FEEL THAT WAY.

alright~ today was awesome~! class tee is done & for ppl whose shirts are tight.. im reallt sorry? :(

I duno what to do. I try to ask the person if can change size or not.

and, YEAH~! my A maths & E maths. I feel sooooooo much better now (:

May Faith stays with me :D

ok larh.. i dun wan post so much so BYE (:

I really wanna know why..
Even if i know, it will hurts...

Be happy will you?

2010-09-19T22:00:00.003+08:00

Life has ups and downs.

But no matter what, you still have to go through.

Every trials only makes you stronger each time.

Just have to endure and walk through it.

Dont stop there and stuck there.

Because you are not gonna make any improvement down there.

Take a step and walk up. Towards the road of righteousness. (:

- by xuan :))

Today went out with amalina to study. heh heh. super fun with her.

shop a little with her at lot too (:

Officially i STEAD with her xD

19/09/10 {4:11pm}

hahas! ^^ okay then~ im off now (:

To "you" : cheer up alright? dont sad le. Everything will be over soon.

&& 1 more good news (: I have really changed after water batism.

wow~! :D Im kind of sad over something today. and a little angry..

but i didnt scold vulgar && i change my way of facing something (:

yeah~!! :) Thank God, i found You. ((:

Im not thinking anymore.

My future, holds "christ"

2010-09-19T13:23:00.002+08:00

After water baptise. (:

I want more picture. MORE MORE MORE!

:D OLIVER AND HENZY DAVID! faster upload :DD

hahas! ^^

You came, and pour yourself so free

More of you, less of me.

2010-09-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

Today the day im reborn.

Happy "birth"day to mee! & jackson too (:

yeah happy happy ((:

Today was like.. REFRESH you know? and and a new life (:

Happy day~! yay!

&& Got shocked in MSN today.

Youre nice (:

but, its better to remain this way first. :P

I know im childish. toooo bad. IM WEIRD :D

P.S "upload image SOON (: "

Here is love, pour out so freely.

Here is love, that captivated all of me (:

so reckoning, that i died with him. (:

2010-09-18T10:38:00.007+08:00

May today be the death to sin and the old life of me,

and a new life lived to God and to righteouness.

Amen (:

Im so exicted today. Just 2hours 30mins more.((:

Blogging a little today first. cause im just to excited!

I want to forget my past.. and bring back my smile.

I sense today is the day. So i really want to pray..

Pray.. 1. Good in studies.

2. Be happy and humble.

3. A lasting r/s & nt dissappointment anymore (: [i need the right one]

heh heh. all is important (:

okay then~ i got to goooo~!

just waiting for my grandma come out of the toilet, so i can go :P

hahas! eggcited!! ^^

byeeee~!

Love, needs faith & trust (:

:(

2010-09-17T15:37:00.003+08:00

Im sick right now. omg. sore throat and little fever.

im gonna be alright.. i guess.

Tmr is the day (: im waiting.

&& its alright if "you" d0nt reply my msg.

i had enough of waiting.

bye.

It hurts to be sad over someone. It even hurts to WAIT.

I dont believe in waiting... anymore.

I want to be happy, does it means i shall not care you anymore?

It seems to be, another failure in my life.

我需要...你

2010-09-16T18:13:00.002+08:00

当你让我看到我真正的自己, 我不敢相信, 其实连我自己都不知道我自己再想什么..
我心里的答案, 就从你那么简单的说出来...就像...我从来都没认真去想过.
我自己被困在一个完全没有路的自己.
都怪我, 自己太笨了...
现在的我, 真的是相反的我.
我想回到, 原来的我.
那个...每天开心的我.
你说你懂我, 现在, 你还懂吗?
因为连我自己, 都不懂想在的我了..

我很希望有一个能改变回我的人..

多么希望那个人是你....

我很需要你...

看到你写的那些字, 真的把我打倒了...

很失望..

The chapter begins with U.

2010-09-16T17:16:00.002+08:00

Ohhh im back :) sorry for long long time nt posting. hehes (:

I was busy studying.

Tues, study with clement and nabil at Nabil's house.

haha! and cook rice. so fun larh. HAHA! NABIL SCARED OF OIL (:

thats super epic kay! haha! lots of fun :)

really concentrating alot these few weeks. cause exam mah~ (:

Mr lim told me many things. Thank God, he came to me.

He let me know.. what to do. I decided to jia you lerh! (:

Everyone taking exam jia you too~! (:

Tired luh these few days. hahas!

Cant wait for this sat. ^^ I duno why leh~ hehes.

Stupid koto test dun take away my day luh~ i dun care. hmm :/

& i know i shouldnt be angry of what i shudnt be.

But for the person who come my blog & write bad things of me and my friends in ur blog,

Please stop doing al those things liao kay. I give in to you.

If I got offence u, u come talk to me. In my face.

Dont be so childish writing stupid stuffs there larh (:

haha!

I need you Jesus. Lift me up from where im stuck.

Confussions..

2010-09-13T19:34:00.004+08:00

I just hope someone could understand me..

I really wonder..

2010-09-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

Today was awesome. Lets start from 12am. I was fishing & cycling (:

and err play poker cards. && sleep ((:

Woke up 9am, packed things. took bus home.

SLEEP. wake @ 3.30pm

WOAH~ epic. church starts @ 3.30pm.

&& i rush out of my home! Changed and everything.

Find a taxi.

Got to church at 4pm.

Thank God. (:

that i reach there, there were still songs (:

cause i love praises and worship ((:

After church, fellowship.

Fun. ^^ ate chicken chop.

HAH! too full, so i give YAP to eat.

I really didnt regreted going to church today.

because its AWESOME.

"When you are stuck in a situation, just find anyway to run out of there.

If you dont, you will just stuck in there forever"

&& thanks someone for chatting many many with me.

Kay~ i caught a sentence.

"even if there is no true love in this world anymore,

the love i would really want to get, its God's love.

His love is greater than all other love"

yeah~ ((:

&& i really think... i should not waste anymore time.

Im so gonna treasure my life now.

I look at my fone, and i saw... no messages.

East Coast Park Chalet

2010-09-11T21:59:00.015+08:00

Just took for fun. On the way home and saw this view very nice (:

@ night 8.50pm to 11.50pm {fishing for prawn}

{Night view, during riding} (:

My sis is scared of the big waves :P

Hey all! :)

Im back from chalet! hahas :DD

Ok larh. kind of fun ((:

Went there and erm.. many ppl.

is my cousin de relatives.

i duno them. hah!

and my cousin bought 2 friends.

one like v ah beng, but he is nt and his GF, is ther(:

then went ther play poker all that.

Play majiong with the adults. WOAH.

i know how to play lerh^^

& i got help them to BBQ. its damm hotty hot!

&& i super love night time!

Go ride bike & rent and go cycling around ecp.

then go fishing for prawns :DD

hahaha! so fun! I caught 3-4 prawn myself ((:

and times flies really fast!

When go back the time, nt enough bike.

and i got to ride on the so called "pole" of the bike.

My cousin ride me. but CMI.

and i decided to ride myself.

and he run back. hahaha!

bought mac to eat.

Play poker card. & won $9 (:

[Kay~ and this is the last time i ever wanna bet]

as for CNY i duno leh :/

I just dun wan feel bad about betting ((:

cause im a child of God. Must be faithful (:

&& 2nd post on top (:

see about what happen today! hahahah:DD

Its a fun day.

2nd post [:

2010-09-10T00:50:00.004+08:00

SISTERS! yay :D im the youngest [OOPS IM GONNA GET BASH! :X]

hahah! And i think im nt smiling? :X

YAPP and me. [a noob beside me] (:
Me & vivian! YAY :D
SANDRA and MEE [:

Church was so fun larh can! Find STARS STARS STARS!

hahahah! xD

I love the way i am now.

God, thanks for the sacrifies. (:

I AM WHO I AM (:

I MUST ...... (:

I CAN DO IT! :D

Yeah~ today ended quite late.

Got scolded. who cares. Its worth it.

just that.. my dad dont know how important is christ in my life now. :/

haha~ kayy. Short post. I love today :D

No more~ HAH! :D I DUN CARE. NEHNEHNIPOOOPOO~ ((:

Post for yesterday 090910

2010-09-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

First of all.... HAPPY BDAY TO TAN ZHI EN :))

Heee~ Im so good. hahahah! Give u ur present on mon uh :)

haha! Faster grow up!!! :D

Enjoyed bullying u pigg!! :D

Stay happyyyy

Pig day!

2010-09-08T19:18:00.002+08:00

Today im sosososo tired till i slept till 2.30pm!
haha! sooooo funny neh~ xP
ME going eat Fish & Chip now! hehes [:
so hungry. i didnt eat the whole day :X
Cause~~ im doing hsework. hah!
Gonna rush tonight to do card.
heh heh. im so kind can? :D
Bye people! TAGG ME. dun left my tagboard dead :(
Silly comment is accepted xD
I know im childish, weird & ~~Fierce.~~
thank you thank you :D
biie~!

我不是笨，我只是想做爱你每一天的那个傻瓜 [:

Hey, let me tell you.. YOU ALL SUCK.

2010-09-07T22:17:00.003+08:00

Sorry if this is too vulgar. Its SPECIALLY for some PEOPLES [:

Hey PEOPLES. You all suck.

SUCK for being biased.

SUCK for looking down on us.

I bet you gonna regret on saying that

IM GONNA MAKE U REGRET.

FUCK OFF. -.-

& let me repeat. WE NOT UR DOG.

wan find? Go find others. -.-

Fucking bitches and dogs like you all, shall get retribution SOON. [:

ANWYAY im nt afriad to post this @ my blog.

ITS OFFICIALLY for YOU ALL to see.

[This msg is only for a group of LOSERS.]

...

Well today was normal luh. After remedial go chat with Gen.

Then go find sjab mates. FUN chat [:

& & go clark quay with tricia! BUY something [:

okay~ yeah. normal day. Just kind of fuck up with someone.

Dun make me boil my blood till im super gonna slap ur bloody face.

Everyone has a limit. watch WHAT U DO and WHAT U SAY.

ok im gonna stop here so BYE [:

Something that you can remember forever.. [tell me plsss xD ]

Mad shopping.

2010-09-06T19:24:00.004+08:00

Today went Far East Plaza with Gen.
Hahas! So fun! :D
Although i didnt buy anything. hahaha.
On our way home today, its so funny.
We sat at the "backwards" sit in the bus @ the front.
Wher by ther were 2 ladies in front of us, facing us.
And 1 lady sleep.. suddenly she jumped as if she got shell shock for 1 sec.
Its so freaking funny and we cant help "not" laughing away.
Everyone were looking at us. like WTH...
but i duno why i just cant stop laughing. HAHAH!
Another ah ma, sleep the time, she open her mouth so big.
LOLS! okay~ and i realised everyone got diff habit of sleeping :)
hahaha!
& now.. Im thinking what to buy for you.

My mind, full of you.

Cant stop thinking about you.

2010-09-05T21:33:00.003+08:00

Hear SUJU "u".

hehes :D so cool. "i cant stop thinking about you~"

:) i really cant. HAH!

2nd post for today. yay..!

FOR THE FIRST TIME, i shop with my dad today.

hahaha! bought many many stuffss!! woo~~~ xD

so happy. yay yay!

I wonder wads on tmr.

hmm [:

i wanna buy... something special. but what? o.o

argh.. im going crazy. why is present hard to buy.

Misses thyy pig.

Thoughts.

2010-09-05T14:04:00.002+08:00

Im fierce, in a good way.

Im dumb, in a bad way.

today i went to tution early in the morning.

im so sleepy now. cause i slept at 3 last night and i DUNO why.

I JUST GOT INSOMIA.

haha! Then, go yew tee made class tee for 3/3 alrdy.

IM SO GOOD :)

Homed. and nth to do.

Just have a piece of mind with you inside.

gonna see doc later on. haa~ byebye.

i think i will have 2nd post for today? :) see how is it. haha.

too bored. BOREDOM KILLS.

&i will die from missing you.

Missing you.

2010-09-04T21:48:00.003+08:00

YO. back to post a little.
currently at cousin house now. hahas!
Today went to church and out to cousin hse.
Kind of nothing much to do.
My mum and grandma playing majiong.
lols. and im using com. hahas~
Ok short post.
happy tt weng yi came to CHC today :)
loveeee~
ok byebye people!

I really... miss that pig alot. :(

Happy Day :D

2010-09-03T20:11:00.005+08:00

Hug Hug! :D

Yay today was awesome. Finally last min get to sch [:

I missed my friends! hehe! They were damm surprised i go sch @ such a late timing :D

hahas! so fun fun fun!

Get back report book. Although i didnt score that well,

but im damm happy that.. i actually thot i will fail 4 subs!

Infact, i pass all ~ yay! yippee :)

Get to play piano in sch today. YAY!!! hahaha! xD

And most of all, Get to see you again :)

Holiday is coming, which means exams are nearer.

Hope to see you soon :P

When i say i love you,please believe its true.

When i say forever,you know i'll never leave you.

When i say goodbye,promise me you wont cry.

Cause the day i'll be saying it would be the day i die.

My one and only "uiie" [:

Thinking of you.

2010-09-02T20:22:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody (:

Do anyone miss me? hah. cause i miss everyone.

I miss you too.

Today @ home was kinda bored?

I did many LAME stuffs in FB in the noon

and took a nap. Guess how in the world i woke up?

BIG THANKS to my sis that shout so loudly.. give me heart attck -.-

LOLS. Then nothing much to do.

Im wondering what to buy for you boy.

& I wonder will u like it? (:

buying presents is not as easy as abc. :/

ok im done with today's post!

Thank God for Strength today once again.. or else i cant even walk to see doc. (:

If you believe, so do i.

I really misses you.

East Coast Park Outing

2010-09-01T19:38:00.009+08:00

yo! [:

today was totally EPIC AND EPIC AND EPIC!

Went out and saw xiao hui. played DDR and then im off with my cca mates to ECP.

go ECP play bike.. and sian diao liao -.-

i sprain my ankle. wth...

it hurts like HELL.

bloody hell.. and i cant WALK le.

IM FINALLY "LAME" lols.

No mood to type so much..

All i care is the HURT :(

argh!! ok bye. :/

Oh dumbdumb, i got your cookie [:

who understands me?

2010-08-31T19:47:00.006+08:00

Argh today was epic during class time celebration for teachers.

End up having cake fight. lols.

Very funny. But feel depressed that my class isnt as well as 2/3'09.

Today watch step up 3.

okok bah.. just something makes me damm irritated.

I really dont give a damm, wan firlt, dont do it behind my back.

go somewhere else and firlt.

I know im not in a mood today. Blame me. I need emotional content.

Councellor, wher are you? lols.

anyway, Love chatting with iris and sara [:

-Do you understand..the pain.

You simply still dont understand. I shall forget the pain.

and pretend it had never pain before.

Its the one and last time, im behaving this way.

Can i trust you?

A brand new dream to go for :)

2010-08-30T17:15:00.016+08:00

Hey guys! Im officially 15 yrs old le kay! :D

I will try my very very best not to be childish anymore :)

hahahah! No guarantee. oops. :X

yay! This year bday many ppl give me soft toy. !

haha. from actually 2 soft toy in room, now become 6! WOW.

oh ya!! Congrats Gen! :D You pass your grade 8! woots! ^^

happy for you :D

tmr is teacher's day which means TODAY NO HW. hahahaha!

:PPP

okay well, im getting done with all these lame stuffs :D

bye people.

1 meaning, 2 actions, 3 words, 4 ever.

Happy bday to me :D

2010-08-29T22:03:00.003+08:00

I'll upload the pictures tmr or so :D

heh heh~! today was fun :D

Should watch "grown up".

very freaking funny! i laugh like hell.

hahaha! xD

Thanks Gen, Weng Yi, Amalina, Shavon, Abi, Bubu, Zaek, Kevin, Jackson, Jerome, Jun xiang for coming:D

Love u guys many many and today was very fun :DD

[: I'll never forget today :D

Thanks Zaek, bubu, von, weng yi, abi, jackson & gen for your presents :D

-Im sorry if i hurt you. Sorry :(

♥

2010-08-28T23:43:00.002+08:00

Thank You w450 for celebrating my bday :D

I love the care bear. hahas :D

And sjab friends for the baby pooh :D

and and kevin for the sweet [:

or course.. people that wishes me advanced bday :D

15 more mins to my bday :) so happy. hahas!

Im finally 15 yeah~~! xD

and and.. 12am gonna come. im making a big wish :P

Today & Tmr is my day :D

Finally. [:

2010-08-28T10:33:00.002+08:00

Reowook :D

Actually life isnt that bad.

Its maybe im just making myself stress.

I decided lerh. I dont want to care the stress le. [:

Cause half of my stress no more. hehe (:

Thank God..for being there for me. (:

& Thank God i found you.

Nothing is impossible.

cause its possible.

Cause got you, then got me.

This feeling sucks.

2010-08-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

Kind of no mood now. I cant think of where to go...

Seriously.. sec 3 life sucks.

Its like no life at all...

Today cgm was fun.

But back to normal life... just feel so stress up again.

God, give me strength please. im gonna drop down and down and down...

sinking further..

I dont know how to say and not i dun wan to say.

The feeling in my heart... is killing me.

Just 3 words.. is it so difficult to say? Kill me.

wondering..

2010-08-26T18:08:00.007+08:00

Facing many many situations now.

I wish for a hope now to pass my maths english and chinese.

Omg. I just looked back at my last time post and i found myself.. very lame T.T

okay.. maybe im getting matured thats why :D

Sometimes i wonder..

Is it really something its impossible or the opposite..?

hmm.. (:

maybe..You tricked me.

maybe..You used me.

maybe..You cheat me.

maybe..You lied to me.

maybe..its impossible..

but for all i care, i have step into your world and never leaves.

This shows how much i care and i will never let you go.

Even till the deepest hurt of all, i endured.

Because i been through before and i will be going through all.[:

maybe..you really love me.

maybe..you really treasured me.

maybe..you really wish to be with me.

maybe..you have been wishing im your last girl.

maybe..you have been waiting for me to love you.

maybe..this is really the biggest dream i ever want.

No matter you love me or you dont,i just love you for who you are.

[Nothing is impossible.]

I want to know the truth? [: